I DON'T WANNA BATTLE ANYMORE

you know what bullshits? I'm feeling CHRONICALLY fucking angry. so fuck you all. sense the fucking irony? anyway bullshits i'm so fucking angry now i really would like to experiment to drain out the maximum amount of blood i can from someone, but not till the extent where he'd die, cause that death is far too simple. i'd then take that blood and drown him with it. its like asphyxia + dying in your own sin, your own bloody bloood.

_____________________________________________________________________ how did she win. can i take her dna and run it, to see what she's made of, is there a trace of an angel that i cannot see, is there a trace of goodness? i see nothing-ness, but you see perfection!

you know, i just learnt another vital step to continue living. i learnt that everybody lies, anyone can practise and practise and become a top notch liar. sigh

i hate losing. thats the thing i hate most, and i keep fighting, and now i'll fight doubly, triply hard, to keep my game right, i'll fight and fight and fight till i wont lose again. i'll fight fight fight till i'll never have to experience what i went through again.

it's pretty early morning, but i feel its already the start of a lousy day. sigh

seri - i called ya earlier on. like at 3:40am sg time. will call ya again later.